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Tuesday, 2 June 2015

Dear Diary (5)

Money, always a difficult subject. As an artist I don’t make a lot of money. I wish I could make a living from my art and I’m really working hard to reach my goals but for the time being this is how it is.
To make art you need to have time. One needs time to put up a business etc. that’s why I always had part-time jobs. I would work 2 to 3 days a week to have time to do my art.
From friends who are not in the art-business I sometimes hear how lucky I am that I have all this freedom to do what I want and that I’m doing my dream job.
When I say it’s all about choices I sometimes get an angry glare. How dare I say such a thing, don’t I know they are stuck with all these responsibilities and I’m the lucky one?!
The thing is that doing your dream job doesn’t mean you’re in a dreamy situation. My income doesn’t leave much room for frivolities like new furniture (almost everything I own I inherited from grandparents and such), going shopping, going out for dinner, owning a car, replacing home appliances or even vacation.
My boyfriend wants me to join him on a little getaway somewhere in the Netherlands, nothing fancy but I’m totally panicking about the fact that my income has become even less since I lost my job and I’m not used to spending money on big things that are not even a material thing that will last for 15 years or so! I know, I’m a tight ass when it comes to spending money…
Like I said, it’s a choice and I’m happy with mine. I tried the other thing and it didn’t work for me. After food and sleep comes swooshing my brush or pencil on a piece of paper, that’s it!



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